what come may......

Well, I'm not givin' up, no, I'm not turnin' 'round,

By the grace of God, I'll win a shinin' crown someday.

Well, I'll keep holdin' on to that nail scarred hand;

I'm not givin' up, No, I'll keep goin' on.

I've been walkin' through the valley, thru this vale of tears;

At times I've even questioned even if my Lord was near.

Many times that ol' tempter says, "Why not turn around?

You can't get any farther, you're just losin' ground."

But, I'm not givin' up..........................................................

Would you mind to tell me, there's been something bothering me?

Why is it that old devil just won't let God's children be?

You see he has purposed and determined to get right in the way;

And turn us from the way of life and lead our souls astray.

But, I'm not givin' up, tho i'm not givin' in as well~

The jealous mind can be unfair

I hear them make their accusations

come what may

No matter what the people say

I'm never givin' up, not givin' in

If there's the slightest chance that I could win

The battle may be lost, but I can win the war

And get the lovin' back the way it was before

At times it's hard to see the changes

Or read the writing on the wall

We may become the best of strangers

But I'll keep holding on

Until I know my chance has gone ON THE GOD'S LOVE I DEMAND~~~

kainku tinggi menyinsing peha mengamankan negara,

apakah kau sekarang tidak lagi eperti dulu?

apakah sudah hilang kasih sucimu terhadapku?

adam.....

marahkah kau jika kukatakan andainya Hawa terpesong ,

maka Adam yang patut tanggung!

Adam kau selalu berkata, Hawa memmang degil, tak mau dengar kata,

tak mudah makan nasihat, kepla batu, pada hematku yang dhaif ini,

Adam, seharusnya kau tanya dirimu, apakah didikanmu terhadapku sama

seperti didikan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W terhadap isteri- isterinya,

adakah Adam melayani Hawa seperti psikologi Muhammad terhadap mereka?

Adakah akhlak Adam-Adam boleh dijadikan contoh terhadap kaum Hawa?

Adam..

kau sebenarnya imam dan aku adalah makmummu,

aku adalah pengikut-pengikutmu,

kerana kau adalah ketua.

jika kau benar, maka benarla aku,

jika kau lalai, lalaila aku,

kau punya kelebihan akal manakala aku kelebihan nafsu.

akalmu sembilan, nafsumu satu.

Aku...akalku satu nafsuku beribu!

dari itu Adam, pimpinlah tanganku, kerana aku sering lupa dan lalai,

sering itu aku tergelincir ditolak sorong oleh nafsu dan kuncu-kuncunya.

bimbingla daku untuk mendalami kalimah Allah,

perdengarkanlah daku kalimah syahdu dari tuhanmu agar menerangi hiudpku.

tiuplah roh jihad ke dalam dadaku agar aku menjadi mujahidah kekasih Allah.

Adam,

Andainya aku masih lalai dengan kerenahmu sendiri,

masih segan mengikut langkah para sahabat,

masih gentar mencegah mungkar,maka kita tunggu dan lihatla,

dunia ini akan hancur bila kaumku yang akan memerintah.

malulah engkau Adam, malulah engkau pada dirimu sendiri,

dan pada Tuhanmu yang engkau agungkan itu.....

(petikan warkah dakwah 1986)

p/s : after reading this article, i wonder is there's any Men still deserve to be called Adam~

sungai besar, sabak bernam= changlun, kedah= mansoura egypt

my life pawned to fate
throwned up
stranded
isolated
in the huge prison with no end.
i end up found myself
i cant even when i've tried
mom said; life is hard
so i can live a little bit HARD
but not THIS MUCH
it's too hard, TOO MUCH notta "little" not even close
depressive
i repeated myself again n again
i guess this is the fate against me
sungai besar changlun mansoura
why ME??
why it's alway s be me to have this fate
i cant go on ,
i feel like giving up
cuz i know myself well
this is not a good idea to go on and be strong
i tried again to make sure it's possible on me
but i failed again.
i failed myself and the will to try
like i did before
i end up gave up.. and return back home
where the most place i would like to be
this whole life..
i thought
i tried, cuz i thought, i've growned up
strong enough to stand the life alone
but WHY, this feeling drag me down.
22
i hope that i'm
giving the best last shot
cuz i want to win myself ...
in this situation that always become the most
most problem i had in life...
................................................................................

maybe i'll go.FLAC

you think you've made it

everything is going so fine

but then appear someone who wanna tear you down

wanna rip you off those

few nice things you've found

when and if you hit the ground

then it's falling kinda hard cause all you do is being yourself

trying everything to succeed somehow

but that's not the way things are right now

feeling kinda lost

those reasons those unkind words being expressed

oh, they'll get to you, i promise, one day

but maybe then it's too late for you to say

i knew it from the go, 'cause you know

that's some miles away from the truth

don't forget

hey, what do you think of me now?

am i not like i once were?

still if you don't know me what's the story of this pen?

i guess you're not a stranger

and i can tell you're not a friend

it might take a while but i guess i'll manage waiting till then

then, when you confront me with your thoughts

and you think i don't notice

don't get a bit hurt by what you do

i ask to please think of what i've done to you

please search inside and let me know

if i've done something wrong i guess i'll go

far

hidden

never to be found

just let me know

then i'll go

then i'll go

stopo to point..

if it is one thing,

a large call memory or many things,

a dark road winding through me,

let up say it is a bullshiitted ..

ive been regreting everyday

regreting and singing them going to grow in one of the precious mine,

or now it is half over my head,

a partially open door..

pain dripping from the dream.

like yours it could be anything,

a hallway that leads to a thousand rooms.

wish that whatever happen to fload them away.,

when i close my eyes and look out a window for more than a few minutes,

so that some days i think,

it must be everything and nothing at once…

and my life is the breeze that blows through the whole scene stirring everything it touches…..

i KiSSED A Girl... NOT My INteNTIoN...(tot just a title from katy perry)

huhu…. i don’t knoe wut to do with my blog..this is not the location of my feeling….i only come undone in myself, in my heart.(berengset)… i keep thinking wut is blog use 4? and i’m tired to even think about it…=/hurm, what to say huh,the becoming examination are soo close and it didn’t go to waste i think, cuz i’m still alive..hoho. but i’m pretie sick rite now. currently, i’m watching shin chan/dik cerdas, super miang and naughty boy like hell!..haha..i like this cartoon, so cute.okay2, so rite here, through all of the blogs i’ve read, most of them revolve around love and relationships. when i m\ean about relationship, i’m talking bout the one on one kind, urm….sumthing like girl n guy, guy n guy, girl n girl….whuteva it is suits 4. i’m talking bout the relations that rili exist in this world…we call it ‘life’ rite. the straight relationship is common in our daily life, but wut make me wonder,’wut’s the actual thing that turns out this kinda…gay or lesb or bi. i remember, when i was in form 3,i hang out wit one of my buddy who’s involved wit this kinda..hurm lesbo, i’m not shock at all, but i’m wondered.. and sumtyme i do blame my lesb buddy, why she involved wit all of this shit…she told me,this is not the actual thing her heart wanted for.i’ve seen the heart break inside of her,the way she choose to be, the regardless of good or bad, (derw, yela tuh)has lead her here(lesb community..ahaks!) and i just huh, ‘lantak kau ar’… i’m a type of gurl who didn’t care too much bout other people, i just… live my life, love my love..hahahaha…. i used to be an easily trust-giving person before, trust.. trust..trust..haha. until one stage in my life, i’m giving up my trust in… …i don’t know in what, but all i knoe i’m giving up.. my…trust, and start feeling insecurity most tyme as i can’t easily trust. .huh, there’s two type of gurls after they ‘or being hurt, the one who keep trying and the another one who bcome "phobia tic" person,then tend to do sumthing like stupid, idiot things!( no matter what it is). no, i’m not going to talk so much on dis.
why is that, most people just having fun wit sum1 like-minded? could it be possible the loyalty to take place? honesty? maybe this is true, "the teenagers get into relationship to fulfill their lustful desires rather than it being a pure commitment to each others wholistic needs" im totally agreed with this statement…huh, our lives are pawned to fate….nah, the issue is so played, that i’m tired to even think about it.."..people that afraid to face the same experience in the straight relation, r tend to choose the another path (this is really for you) (muslim got ‘imaan’ to prevent this, i still have. hehe)so, for this very fact my dear friends, some kinda bi/gay are not fully hv any feelings towards their own sex, but they choose to be that way untill the true person will come their way. they actually still open their heart,but be fully certain b4 they close it.(thesis 3 roman)so, before they close it, they r still waiting fer sum1 to grab them outa from this………okay2..i know, i know.. i’ve talked so much and i will stop crapping, k…..stay safe and god .bless…i am a normal human being, natural feeling towards opposite sex…heehee….-writer-
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when u hate sum1 u can’t hate

when u be sum1 u don’t know

when u miss sumthing u can’t tell

when u heart sum1 (so much) u can’t feel

when u think about the old tymes,

u think about how great the thing is for you..

but when u think it twice,

u wonder how much u did for them?

when u think n think again,u couldnt find any, u lost..

and when u lost, u cant do anything, u cant move, u stare.

when u loved sum1 which is not rili ”L.O.V.E”. they still think it is LOVE.
on the other side, it just a luv, 4 sumthing they did the best 4 u before, its not sumthing u want from them.
when u keep on blaming others, u couldnt find the end of it. but when u try to look at ur own mistakes, u dunno how to fix it. u think u will b given the second chance, u start a new life, u leave the past.
but the past will remain to be the past forever in you unless u fix it, or else u live with it and all the guilt will haunt untill the tymes u dunno when.
so when u hate sum1 so much, u think u hv ur right to do so, u dun realise how the ‘hate’ thingy is actually hurting urself and make ur life miserable. y dun u just love urself?..
for godsake just LEAVE IT!.